Showing posts with label PCOS. Show all posts
Showing posts with label PCOS. Show all posts

September 5, 2015

Baby Bud Round Up

When last we spoke, I was mid-cycle on my IVF stimulation process.  All-in, the process lasted 12 days culminating in a nice dose of IV sedation (I do so love IV sedation) and the harvesting of my little egglets.

By my last ultrasound pre-retrieval they counted 10-12 follicles on each ovary.  Each follicle was about 20mm, give or take, and being the visual thinker I am I drew 12 20mm circles on a piece of paper and cut them out.

 Since I have two ovaries, I thought you should see it twice ;)

On the same day, they drew a blood sample as usual.  With IVF, there are generally two options for a trigger, Low-dose HCG and Lupron.  I had expected to be using the Lupron trigger because it is a good option under two conditions: when you are not planning a fresh transfer and when there's a risk of developing OHSS.  Since I have PCOS (a factor that increases the risk of OHSS) and planned to do PGS (preimplantation genetic screening), this made sense.  However when they got the blood results back and called me, they instructed me to use the more traditional HCG trigger.  I couldn't tell you the exact medical reason but as they explained it to me it had to do with my particular set of hormone levels which indicated I might not respond effectively to the Lupron trigger and a lack of warning signs for OHSS.  That's all fine and good, except that the Lupron would have been administered with more of the tiny needles I'd been sticking in my belly (and was now used to) whereas this is the needle used for the HCG trigger:

This is an IM (intramuscular) injection - yes, my husband had to stick this in my backside.  Yay.
As you can see, the HCG trigger shot needle is quite a bit longer, and thicker, than the subcutaneous ones.  On the other hand, that's a lot smaller than the needle that was going to be placed in a much more disturbing location two days later...but we'll come back to that.

Fun Fact:
The point of the trigger shot is not to rupture the follicles containing the eggs, it is to get the egg to release from the wall of the follicle - where it had been hanging out during development - and float freely in the follicular fluid.  How cool is that?!

Between the trigger shot and retrieval you get a day "off" from injections.  It's a nice little reprieve.  For retrieval I was going to be placed under IV sedation so I was going to need a day or two off from work, and with the effects of the meds and retrieval process affecting my ovaries I was encouraged to take a few days.  So in true sickie form, I took several vacation days to have this done.  On the up side, my husband was also able to take a few days so in addition to making sure I was taken care of we got to spend a little time together and do some day trips.  Gotta incorporate a little levity, right?

On the day of my retrieval, I arrived at the office and was placed under sedation.  While I was out, the doctor used a long needle placed through the vaginal wall to drain each follicle of its fluid, hopefully containing an egg.  Thank God I fall asleep from the sedation, I'm told some people don't.  I can't even imagine.

Anyway, one of the reasons I love IV sedation is how quickly and easily I recover from it, though apparently this time I did argue with my husband a little that I wanted to go back to sleep rather than really rouse myself.  I think this both annoyed and entertained him.  By the time I was with it, the embryologists had identified the eggs retrieved and within a few minutes more, knew how many were fully mature!  For some reason I thought it would take a couple hours to do that.  Even though there was a frozen sperm sample on hand for use as a back-up supply, my husband was asked to provide a fresh sample that morning, which he did.  This was also analyzed quickly and fresh sperm were selected for the ICSI fertilization process, where an individual sperm is selected and injected into an egg.  The day after retrieval you are told how many fertilized (this is day 1).  On day 3 we got an update on how many were still growing, and again on day 5 (my practice grows all embryos at least to day 5 hoping they reach blastocyst stage, and sometimes they are left for an additional 1-2 days).  At that point, we had to decide how many we would biopsy and send for testing.

As a point of order, not all follicles that are drained will necessarily contain and egg, not all eggs retrieved will be mature, and not all mature eggs will fertilize.  Additionally, the fertilization rate with ICSI is generally 75-85% and the proportion of fertilized eggs that will actually reach blastocyst is usually 60% or less.  With my age and stats we were pulling for the high end of those ranges.

That being said, I had 27 eggs retrieved, 21 of which were mature (this is considered an excellent response, and even moreso when you recall that I had used a low-dose stimulation protocol).  We gave the go-ahead to perform ICSI on all 21...and 19 fertilized.  On day 3, all 19 were still growing.  On day 5, ALL 19 WERE STILL GROWING.  A few didn't end up reaching blastocyst, but in the end we had 15 embryos eligible for biopsy!  Once we got past the initial shock of such high numbers we had to decide how many to biopsy.  For financial reasons we only sent 8 biopsies out for testing, but we did have the remaining 7 biopsied and the samples frozen for future testing.  I guess I have fairly hardy little eggs if they were only able to get through my damaged fallopian tubes!

For a woman my age, they expect 20-30% of the embyos to be chromosomally abnormal (non-viable), and this time I was right on target.  25% of my baby buds we tested (or 2 out of 8) were abnormal, leaving 6 chromosomally viable buggars to work with for now.  We chose to find out the genders, but this is a choice each couple can make.

The next step is generally to prepare for an FET (frozen embryo transfer).  In my case, they had identified one or more polyps hanging out in my uterus and it's best to remove them before transferring - which is where we can pick this up another day.

And that, dear future child, is the story of how you were made!

August 23, 2015

What's It All About, Anyway?

Another post from My UII Blog that was all about the infertility world is "What's It All About, Anyway?"

In this post, I explored the decisions you have to make on an infertility journey and how far this world is from the one we imagine growing up.  I even made my own graphics - I'm a visual thinker and a CPA, I think in flow charts:)  For example, here's how I grew up thinking the process to having kids would unfold:


But as we all know, that plan has blown right out the window.  So I reframed my expectations:


I think this second chart captures a point couples facing infertility go in and out of.  When initially dealing with an infertility diagnosis, for couples who want to pursue having kids, they will enter this stage.  However for some, including myself, the first one (or two or three) treatment plans won't work and we find ourselves making new choices.  We may decide to try more advanced therapies or lesser-known solutions (for example, surrogacy or embryo adoption) in which case we'll return to something like the above chart, but will have to pass through the next process to do so:


After all this exhaustive analysis, I realized the crux of the question is really, what's it all about?  Why are we doing this?  What's our goal and why do we want it?  Because without examining these things, we could never decide which path to take next and how long to pursue it.

This is just an overview of the things I covered in my post, but I encourage you to read the full post to really understand the points I'm trying to make, and to see what Shawn and I were thinking, and feeling, about the process for ourselves.  Thanks for stopping by!

Please, Just Don't Say That

Since I've already posted a few things on my other blog about this topic, I'd like to migrate them over to this new one as a starting point.  In these several entries, I'll give you some background on how my path has weaved and wobbled so far, as well as some of the sources of support I have found and things I have learned.  Hopefully those of you who can relate to any of this will share your thoughts, experiences, and information with me and our community as well.

One of my first blog posts was right after my pregnancy loss right before Christmas in 2014.  In this post, I took the opportunity to lay out some things that are - and are not - helpful to say to someone going through infertility and/or pregnancy loss.  These are based on my own experiences as well as those of other women I'm connected with who may have different situations from myself.  You can read the post in it's entirety at "Meat Loaf and I Lay Down the Law", but here are some highlights:

I know I haven't posted in what feels like forever.  I pretty much stopped posting in the spring of 2013.  That's when two things happened - I switched jobs, leaving KPMG where I had been for close to 4 years, and I start trying to have a baby.  Let me summarize for you:
~I worked for the place I went after KPMG for 10 months then switched jobs again - I found something in my field and close to home and was very happy to make the change.
~Shawn graduated college and began working as a nurse.
~I was diagnosed (over time and 3 doctors) with PCOS, Endometriosis, and damaged "fingers" on my fallopian tubes.  I had surgery, take new medicines (which helped me drop 40 pounds), am learning all about the "joys" of fertility treatments, and just this week had a miscarriage.


In the full post I go into detail on each of these, but here's the summary of things I suggest saying or not saying if you want to be supportive.


Please, whatever you do, just don't say:
(For Infertility)
  • You'll be pregnant in no time.
  • Just relax.
  • If it's God's plan, it will happen.
  • Your child needs a sibling!
(For Miscarriages)
  • At least you know you can get pregnant.
  • You'll be pregnant again in no time.
  • It's for the best.
  • There's always adoption.
  • At least you were only a few weeks along.
A "tread lightly" list:
  • God has a plan.
  • I think it will work out for you to be a mother, but I know this sucks right now.
  • Do you want to talk about it?
Things that you can say:
  • I'm praying for you.
  • Can I pray with you?
  • I've been there too.
  • Let me know if you would like any resources.
  • There's nothing wrong with you for feeling like that.


Since posting the original piece, I've had several other suggestions given to me by friends in my support group that I'd like to add.  
  • I love you.
  • Can I give you a hug?  (Or, if not together, "I wish I could give you a hug".)
  • How can I support you?
  • If you want to talk later or need help, I am here for you.
And please, please, PLEASE: do not forget us.  We're already feeling more alone than at any other time in our lives, even with our spouse or partner.  Send us a message to let us know you're thinking of us.  Take the effort to make plans with us.  And this one may surprise you, but don't stop including us as your own families may grow.  

There will be times we have to turn down invitations to protect our own vulnerable hearts, but on the whole we still want you to be happy and there will be days we will enjoy being with you and your family.  So invite us to baby showers and birthdays and holiday parties and BBQs.  Make it "safe" for us to be honest with you, and we'll take care of deciding if we can handle the event or not.  That's not your problem to solve:)